Through the Fire

 

This one was hard for me to write.

I heard about a few fires that happend last year and two of them were within a mile from me. The families lost everything. And then there was the story on the news of the family that escaped from their burning home only to find out that a disabled uncle was still inside. A brave little boy went back in to get him and never came back out. They were found together. How do you go on from there?

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5

 

Trying to get through times like these seem impossible. Trying to make it on your own is terrifying.

With God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26

 

My Personal Experience

Life can take you places you never wished you'd be. Some situations are out of your control. When my middle son was 4 years old he became very ill. We saw several doctors over a 5 day period and recieved diagnoses' from viral to scarlet fever. After the 5th day of watching my son rapidly decrease in health I took him to the ER only to have yet another doctor send me home. Luckily before the doctor had called my son's pediatrician for a consult, I had told him my suspicion of Kawasaki Disease and how the symptoms I read online were exactly what I saw in my child. He had a look on his face I'll never forget. He was familiar with the symptoms and although Kawasaki is very rare, he did a blood test. The nextmorning I recieved a call from my son's pediatrician with a great concern to come in for an echo cardiogram. His blood testshowed he had Kawasaki Disease which affects the blood vessels in the body, including the aorta, which can lead to an aneurysm and even death. I was relieved to finally have adiagnosis. Then I learned there is only one treatment for Kawasaki and it had to be administered within the 10th dayor it's uneffective. This hit me in my gut as we were on the6th day. I read an online forum for children that had Kawasaki and there was another little girl that died while my son was in the hospital getting treatment. She was diagnosed the same week but didn't respond to treatment. This was something that was out of my control and the doctors could only do so much to help.I would have to wait and see how Landon would respond to treatment. We were an hour into his treatment which was a two day drip in his IV to give his body antibodies he needed to fight. He did not respond well. His body started shaking so intensly the whole bed moved along with him as he had an allergic reaction to the medicine. I watched as my baby held on for dear life trying to fight off this horrible sickness. I yelled for the doctors and sat with my arms reaching to the sky. Please God!!! This was my fire. I can't do anything. It is out of my hands and out of the hands of the doctors. Something in me changed that day in the hospital room. I can barely talk about it without getting transported to those feelings that day. I am grateful that Landon's reaction subsidded with some good ole Benedryl and they were able to continue the rest of the treatment successfully. I know that wasn't the case for everyone. Fear can control you. I have no doubt that my strength comes from the Lord.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God I will strengthen you and help you; will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10